I stayed home sick today. I don't feel as disgusting as I did earlier, and I hope I can go to practice tomorrow. That will clear my sinuses right up!

I also felt like I need a "mental holiday"...I've been really stressed recently and I feel like I'll be an all-around better person if I can have one day just to chill out. Last year was a disaster, and so far, so is the beginning of 2009. I almost feel like a loner in school, and that all of my friends are merely acquaintances...I'm doing fine in school, but I feel like school is just that - SCHOOL. I feel like I don't have a social life anymore. I'm not asking to be invited to something every day of my life, but it would be nice to have a group of friends that I did things with again. I miss hanging out with Charlotte every day. Luckily, I'm going to her house for a sleepover on Saturday. We should have a lot of fun (even though Taylor won't be there...I'll miss her). I can't wait. I'm supposed to make cupcakes, although that's a challenge at the moment because we don't have any fresh flour. Anyway, I bought a scale on Wednesday. An accurate one. I was weighing myself in my room (on carpet) and it said that I was lighter than I'd ever been, but when I moved it to hard floors it told me I was almost overweight. I'm more likely to believe the second result, which I hate admitting. It's true and I HAVE to lose weight. It's more of a health thing now. Not to mention I hate the fact that I have no control, at all.

I almost want to go to a boarding school. Just to completely start over. New surroundings, new people, new school...but I can't. I can't leave my family and friends like that...not to mention synchro.

I've been hanging out with Taylor a lot recently. We have a lot of fun together, so it's great to just be with each other, I guess.